Ok, first of all I know I'm constantly complaining and I'm sorry but this is really starting to tic me off.

Please if your only gonna read this and then criticise me then don't.

Lately, I have not been it the best of moods. I'm stressed form school and such and People. I'm also going through a bunch of things at once which is causing problems.

I am sick of being treated different. I'm sick of people laughing, criticising and babying me. I am treated equal alright, but not equal to people, oh no I'm treated equal to the mentally ill (no offense) or the average idiot. Just because I'm quiet doesn't make me stupid. I know when you talk about me, I know when your laughing. I'm not always the smartest but I bet I'm smarter than half the friggin people at Gna who do nothing but sit home and smoke pot all day or drink, or even just acts totally childish and stupid. I have a brain i get fair grades.

Also Hello OMG i'm a human too. I'm constantly being treated like some alien with no feelings, no defense. Basically I'm nothing. I make mistakes. I'm not always right and I definatly do care and cry and sob and love. I get offended. I make jokes and I take them too. I love to laugh but Ya'know jokes can sometimes get too personal and they are no longer jokes but they are hurtful tools of pain and torture. I'm sick of people toying with my emotions. They treat me kindly and then behind my back they call me strange, freak, Emo, and worst of all B****. I can't recall hurting or harming any of these friggin scumbags other than right now. So, then why do they do this to me. Do they think it's funny? Am I supposed to laugh? I HATE High school. Do these people deserve anything? No, but they get it. But, there is one thing they will never get and that's a word out of me.


Another thing is how come because I don't talk I automatically become lower than everyone? Why am I considered scary? Mean? or just emotionless? I My self would NEVER hurt anyone on purpose ....... so why am I the one who automatically is the killer of the future. I would never kill ....... or harm anyone. Yet people fear me. I don't understand. No, matter how nicely I treat people they still see me as scary, quiet , emotionless, and mean. No matter how many times I cry and sob and hope and dream ...... I'm still considered scary,quiet , mean, harmful and such.

I am NOT Mean!!! I AM NOT STUPID!!! I AM NOT EMOTIONLESS!!! I AM NOT SCARY!!! I AM NOT ANYTHING BUT ME AND IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE THAT THEN SCREW YOU AND DEAL WITH IT!!!

Oh an BTW 's RULE!!!!